Citizen Y Eats His Words While Citizen X Lashes Out

Though it may not be the heroin-like world of opiates, Y seems to have learned to appreciate the Ativan. It creates a unique warmth and calm in Y that is often far removed from his angry and unpredictable attitude.  This a common blow to my self-righteous hatred of drugs. We spend a lot of time arguing over which position is more noble, the fool who covers his issues in drugs or the fool who covers his issues by being in opposition to drugs. Personally, Ativan, Weed, alcohol, tobacco and all that are not noble. Some feel that LSD and Psilocybin enriches one's relationship with the "divine" and maybe it does. But would it not be more noble to reach the divinity without any aide. To do it naturally, the same path many ascetics walk down.

Citizen Y, "I am not trying to be nobe by using drugs. If I don't have a valid medical reason, then there is definitely some reason I am doing what I choose to do that day. Its trapped by centrifical force and never leaves the IBM think-tank composed by my neurons. Like if I get addicted to something, I do psychadelics and the cravings go away. I need energy, I get an upper. ETC And yes some of the more well know hallucinogens can lead many to a spiritual experience, but that's not the only to take them. You should take them if you would like to see a few dozens, unique shifts in perception"

This comes from a guy who used to have coke to kick the blues, some weed to relax him and a cigarette to shred his lungs into pieces. Citizen Y is by no means an idiot drug user. He has numerous connections and usually knows what he taking and where it came from. Thus, he is afforded a certain amount of trust by those around him.
"I hope that the ativan effects increase greatly with dosage" -Citizen Y

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Citizen Y's night

Unlike many of the prescription drugs that Y has tried, the Ativan was extremely weak. When Y was able to obtain various opiates, he must have done such powerful opiates that the Ativan seems like candy. Of course, when the psychiatrist hears of this, Y will get a more powerful drug. The Ativan was to partially treat Y's insomnia. Being that we share in insomnia, I have been able to keep tabs on what Y is experiencing while the Ativan digests. It seems that these little pieces of sunshine do little for the medical condition Y is supposed to be treating. Ironic that he can acquire hardcore opiates illicitly, but when in need of benzos for sleep he is unable to acquire a powerful enough dose.

Today, Citizen Y Begins Adivan

Citizen X has many friends who do many drugs. Some of these drugs are illict and used for recreation. Citizen X does not do these drugs and is going to make observations of those around him who do. Citizen X is sXe, meaning I am straight edge. I abstain from all drug usage, recreational or therapeutic. This blog is a record of what effects I see the drugs doing to these people and what they tell of me of the drugs feeling. I might do a bit of research into them, but I will not use any drug (especially caffeine)

Citizen X's first friend of interest is Citizen Y. Citizen Y has an "x" and a "y" chromosome. Y enjoys recreational drugs, especially stimulants and some psychedelics. Y has also used opiates and has had a few run ins with addiction. Y smokes cigarettes and cannabis while maintaining a steady caffeine supply. Most of Y's drug issues come from his rather odd emotional response mechanisms which Y regulates with these substances (or so he says). Though in the case of Y, Y might not be hiding behind that excuse. Today, Y went to the psychiatrist to address his self-harming panic attacks that accompany extreme stress for Y. The psychiatrist then prescribed Y Ativan. The active ingredient in Ativan is Lorazepam, which according to Wikipedia has the same long term effects as alcohol. Except with Ativan, the user only needs to take it for about a month before addiction becomes extremely likely. Unlike what the doctor told Citizen Y, Lorazepam is one of the more addictive sleep-aide/anxiety-reducer available. Of course, Y didn't want to take Ambien because it would Y little good when he was in a rage. Tonight, he popped his first pill of Ativan, which in this case was for a medically legitimate reason. What effect it has on him will be determined shortly.